GamerDude said:
I've tried to explain to him how I felt but from day one he was very arrogant, and got nasty with me in PM about the "science in RPGs" argument, then wouldn't leave me alone.
Al Beddow, you are a
liar, and that is putting it as politely as I can. And I've got the evidence to show that you're a liar right here.
I've attached the PM "conversation" that we had that Al is referring to (he had a different name then - "ParanoidGamer", but I've quoted him as "GamerDude" to avoid confusion). Unfortunately due to mailbox limits, I didn't keep all my outgoing messages to him, but I did keep the replies he sent to me where he included quotes from my outgoing messages so you can see the sort of tone I was using (at least on what he quoted). But this is all quoted directly from my mailbox with no editing - unlike him, I have no interest in lying to people in order to make myself look good.
As you can see, he's the one being abusive, arrogant and nasty, and calling the other side childish names - not me. If the language he used is him trying to tell me "how he felt", then he's got a lot of nerve calling
me "arrogant" and "nasty" when I was keeping my responses civilised. Sure, maybe I've used stronger language against him later on, but that's born of the frustration of having to put up with all the abuse I get from him to start with.
And I really don't give a damn if this should be kept private. Al Beddow hasn't even shown me any basic respect from day one, so why the hell should I care if he wants his abuse of me kept private? And I'm sure as hell not going to keep it private when he's made claims about what was said public anyway. So, I must present the evidence against those claims.
As for me "not leaving him alone" - I have been continually harrassed and insulted by Al Beddow from day one (and "day one" is probably the quoted PM exchange, or the original thread it branched from in the MGT playtest). Since then, even in threads where I don't post, he's continuously sniped at me and made very thinly veiled insults without any provocation. I have no interest in him at all, and I certainly am not interested in stalking him,
he's been doing that to me all this time. He just won't leave me alone. Hence, I quit.
As for everyone else, I'm really sorry you had to put up with all this crap over the past two years. But I can't apologise for other people's actions, that has to be up to them. I'll guarantee you something though - if Al Beddow is allowed to remain here, you won't hear the end of it. He'll still complain and snipe about me after I've gone.
So here's the real Al Beddow, for all to see. And the real EDG, for that matter. I'll leave the reader to come to his own conclusion about whether Al Beddow - aka GamerDude and ParanoidGamer - is truthful in his representation of me.
Oh, and note that this exchange was from December 2007 - nearly
two years ago. And he has continued this behaviour publicly since then.
(and in case anyone gets confused, my parts are in the indented quote boxes - Al's are in the larger boxes).
GamerDude said:
Listen dude...
You're not getting what I'm trying to say. First, I am a GM, not JUST a player. Then entire discussion was 'applicable and important' to me.
Basically your argument comes down to you're an idiot who can't see past his own viewpoint.
Get a life, buy a clue, and go make YOUR OWN version of Traveller that is the "uber-realistic" level of "reality" you crave and leave all of the "irrational just-wanting to have fun" GM's/Players alone.
PS. This is sent in pvt to keep this from hijacking the thread... Keep it private.
GamerDude said:
EDG said:
Hell, I'm arguing for getting all this complex stuff out of the way for the end user and it seems that all I'm getting is abuse for it. I can't win, it seems.
It's not abuse unless you, as the target/recipient, considers it abuse. I never abused you.
EDG said:
Insulting me because you continually miss the point I'm making isn't exactly giving me a good impression of you. I've not insulted anyone here.
Again, something is an insult if the target/recipient considers it an insult. I do consider your constant trivializing my point and out of hand dismissals insulting.
EDG said:
Nice strawman there. I've not once implied that GMs and players who "just want to have fun" are "irrational". I've said that the fear of realism is irrational, which is completely different. Maybe if you read what I actually said instead of what you think I'm saying we may be able to communicate more clearly. And stop taking it so damn personally.
Damm, if you can't justify your argument in your mind, you dive for the strawman. I have ZERO fear of 'realism'. I have a total distaste for the level "realism" got to in the thread. But, your blanket statement about the fear of realism implies that any discussion of not taking it to the level YOU desire or how YOU see it is a 'fear of realism".
Hell, now you're getting into circular arguments. "I didn't say that I meant this. I didn't mean this I said that." I've had several friends (highly educated, respected in the game design community amongst other areas), and they all agree... your posts are worded only to be confusing, stir things up and 'bait' people into responding. I guess you have a need for attention.
GamerDude said:
EDG said:
I really don't know how you can misunderstand what I say so much, because I'm writing it in plain and clear english. It seems to me that you've got it in your head that I'm saying something I'm not and you refuse to change your mind when I correct you about it. Either way, there's really no point in talking to you any more - if you can't understand what I'm saying then there's not much I can do about it.
Gawd, listen to you. "if someone can't understand me it's only THEIR fault." Do you also walk on water? Is every that ever happened not your fault and always because people just don't understand you/screwed you over/because your mommy didn't breast feed you?
Oh trust me. I understand what you've been saying. But as I said... this is about YOU seeing everything someone says as either A)agreeing with/validating you or B) inconsequential and the person/opinion is to be trivialized & marginalized.
Have a Merry Christmas. It's like what, your 2007th birthday?
GamerDude said:
Dude...
Give it up. I've got like 15 different people following your stupidity.
Go have fun in your own universe. I think your next public "walking on water" demo is in 10 minutes. (meaning, you have THAT high of an opinion of yourself)
So, does anyone still actually believe that Al Beddow is the wounded, misunderstood party here who deserves your sympathy? Do you still think I'm the one who started throwing insults around, or that I was the one being "arrogant" and "nasty" in that initial PM conversation? Or do you perhaps now see that he's lying through his teeth about his interaction with me, and twisting everything around to make himself look like the innocent victim? What I quoted in this post is the unedited truth from my PM box - what he said in his post was a complete lie. So think about that before you trust his opinion about me ever again.
With that, I'm out of here. I just came back to let Matt know I was leaving, but I think I'll send him a PM present of this too.